Im dating my english teacher

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I stand in line at the bookstore. Which one best encapsulates Tasmania? Later that day I stand in line again. A month passes. There is nothing. Perhaps he hates Richard Flanagan. Fifteen years earlier, I had been a high school student in a small, Scottish market town. Stuck in that excruciating place between childhood and adulthood, I was a hot bundle of hormones and contradictions.

I wore short leather skirts and an orthodontic brace on my teeth. I had soft, pixie-cropped hair, and purple Doc Martens that came up past my ankles. Most of my friends were already in relationships, making their first fumbling attempts at sex. On Monday mornings the school corridors were full of whispers about what had taken place in car parks and shop doorways over the weekend. Boys my own age terrified me.

In the back of my journal I kept a list of what I knew about him — the color of his car, his timetable, his favorite book — as though the possession of such information would somehow bring us closer. One day in class he let slip that it was his birthday, and from then on when I read my horoscopes in glossy teen magazines I looked at his too.

I searched for some from the cosmos that the next school disco would be the one where he asked me to dance, or that the next time I borrowed a dictionary from the book cupboard he would finally push me against the shelves and kiss me. High school is a desperately physical place.

When we had class straight after recess I found excuses to stand close so I could smell the coffee on his breath and imagine how he might taste. When he leaned over the desk to mark my work, the hair on his arms occasionally brushed against the hair on mine, and something would catch in the back of my throat.

I became obsessed with the two-inch strip of pale skin between the top of his sock and the bottom of his trousers that only appeared when he crossed his legs. I even loved the way he pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose. Romantically, the relationship only existed in my imagination. He ignored the school blouses undone just one button too far, and the suggestive stroking of my pinstripe tie.

They all went unanswered. But there was a kindness about him that I clung to; he showed a passion for the subject that made him generous with time and attention for those with an interest. When we studied a Scottish writer, Iain Crichton Smith, my teacher asked me to stand up and make a presentation to the class about the Highland background I shared with the poet.

I stammered and cringed my way through it, but felt for the first time like maybe I had a perspective worth sharing. Sitting in my English class, I believed it might just be possible to do that. Everything worth learning in high school, I learned in Room 8. That I had value beyond my body. That I was smart enough to speak up in a group setting.

That I should always choose the more difficult book. I thought at the time that loving a teacher was the most dangerous and daring thing I could do. In retrospect — because he was a good man — it was probably the safest ways to spend my teens. Having reached that place of realization, or appreciation, how could I say it out loud?

Thank you for not taking advantage of me, for not making me feel foolish. Thank you for never allowing me to believe that my feelings were reciprocated. Thank you for teaching me that I could be alone with a man and not feel scared.

Even when I had moved to a new town, and country, and continent, when I was in my thirties with a happy marriage and a young son, and I had finally been able to untangle all the difficult feelings of adolescence, those words were too hard to say. All I could do was buy a book and a bottle of whisky, and hope my small gesture was enough. Almost three months after I stood in line at the post office, I receive an , thanking me for the parcel. He is pleasant and polite. He makes a Dr Who reference about the strange ways in which time moves on, tells me he will be taking early retirement in just a few weeks.

His plans for life after teaching include travel around Europe, running a half marathon, and learning to code. I realize this is the most I will ever know about him. And also, that I still know nothing. The offers little sense of who he is; it simply provides an update to the list of information I kept in my journal as a teenager. He remains kind but distant, and I understand that no matter how many years pass our relationship will never move beyond the basic dynamic of teacher and student.

Knowing that I will likely never see this man again — will never just bump into him in the street — makes me brave. It takes a week to compose. There is one paragraph that I add and remove almost a dozen times, because I fear it will likely embarrass us both. I leave it out.

Eventually I feel like I have the right words in the right order. Ruth Dawkins is a writer who comes from a tiny island in the north of Scotland. Two years ago she moved to Tasmania, Australia, where the cold winters, beautiful light and generous measures of whisky make her feel very much at home. She tweets and blogs as DorkyMum. Continue Reading. College Relationships. Dear College Roommates, In the coming weeks, many teens will crease open the front cover to explore the next chapter of their lives for the first time.

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It was a tip off that he was about to head out the door to meet up with his friends for the night. As he rounded the corner and walked into the kitchen,…. Friend's Address. Your Name. Send . And so I fell in love with my English teacher. I know that it will not get a reply. I do not need it to. There is nothing more he can teach me. This originally appeared on The Manifest-Station.

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